May 12th, 2010


Mental things

Over at jumpthesnark, Mill is writing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) (and her other mental health conditions, PTSD and depression) every day for the month of May as a BPD Awareness Month with the aim that readers will donate 30 of whatever currency they prefer to MSF (Medicine Sans Frontiers - Doctors Without Borders) at the end of the month. I am finding it very interesting and, although I do not have access to a professional diagnosis for my mental health mess other than "clinical depression", PTSD and BPD do ring a lot of bells for me, the latter more in the past than now (I HUGE breakdown/episode at university including stalking, violence, suicidal ideation and attempts as well as many other ticks on the BPD diagnosis checklist) but the tendencies are still there underneath and in the background albeit managed and self-acknowledged.

I do not agree with or like self-diagnosis but do not have access to professional diagnosis at this time. I am also not sure what getting a diagnosis would achieve when the BPD-like-ness is pretty dormant right now. My latest counsellor did agree that PTSD was likely as a diagnosis for me, even though she was not a shrink as such and so not able to formally diagnose me herself. We did not discuss BPD but we did talk about my almost-schizophrenia-like episode at uni along with my fears of schizophrenia due to the incidence of that in both sides of my family. Bear in mind that my self-diagnosis of multiple sclerosis came many years before the professionals would agree that that was, in fact, what I had.

So, if you know someone with mental health conditions such as depression, BPD, PTSD or schizophrenia, you need to read these posts. Mill is also training in psychology and a trained counsellor. These posts are written from the POV of the person with BPD as well as, occasionally, from the POV of the therapist/mental health professional. She is dealing with symptoms, medication, how to talk to the person with BPD, how to deal with their violence, how to cope with having the condition yourself and many other useful and well written topics. I have even added her to my LJFriends so as not to miss any posts from her.</li>
  • apiphile did something very similar which is what inspired jumpthesnark - wrote 30 poems within the month of April.
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    Childhood books

    This post is incomplete but I am going to post it as is rather than have it stagnate un-posted forever.

    Books that I remember fondly from my childhood reading (all of these being consumed before I hit my teens and most before I hit double figures):
    • Lucy M Boston's "Green Knowe" books. I had a boxed set of five or so paperbacks if I remember rightly. I loved these books and Green Know was forever my grandparents' (mum's side) house, The Old Cottage in Chartridge, Buckinghamshire. It appears that she (alone and with others) has written more books in the series since I read them as a child. Sadly my library does not seem to have them in the online catalogue.

    • J R R Tolkien's "The Hobbit", rapidly followed by anything I could find that he had written.

    • Joyce Stranger's books.

    • Enid Blyton

    • The "Swallows and Amazons" series.

    • The "What Katy Did" series.

    • "Tom's Midnight Garden"

    • Anne Frank's books

    • "When Hitler Stole Pink Rabbit"

    • "Wind in the Willows" and "Toad at Toad Hall"

    • "Watership Down" and his others.

    • John Wyndham.

    • Many classics. My relatives would buy me books for every gift-giving event such as birthdays and xmas. I had a red leather bound set of "Children's Classics" books including "Black Beauty" and "Treasure Island".

    • Poetry from many places.

    • Anne McCaffrey's Pern stuff.

    • Ursula le Guin.

    • … and anything else with words on it!

    Then again, I used to read anything with words on it from the age of four when I was first taught to read. Anything. Signposts. Cereal packets. I felt lost without words in front of my eyes. Sadly I was not allowed to read at the dinner table but during breakfast those boxes were my saviours!


    R A I N B O W

    This LJPost has been brought to you by the realisation that a rainbow has seven visible colours (red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet/purple with the aide memoire of "Richard Of York Gave Battle In Vain") and the word "rainbow" has seven letters. These little things please my little mind. The code for the above pretty demonstration follows:

    <font size=+3><font color=red>R</font> <font color=orange>A</font> <font color=yellow>I</font> <font color=green>N</font> <font color=blue>B</font> <font color=indigo>O</font> <font color=purple>W</font></font>