March 25th, 2008


[loudtwitter] My Twitterings from the last 24 hours

15:06 zero spoons after using them all yesterday watching roleplaying games which was loud but great fun - lack of spoons wasting long weekend tho #

15:06 @JaneFoth what is the "L:" for? #

15:10 @mollydotcom personally I prefer Torchwood to Dr Who (if I had to chose) - more adult plots and 'real world' (i.e. less time/space travel). #

15:19 Pixel is asleep and dreaming/twitching - with his eyes open! ;-p #

15:24 @hollyking: "Give it to a hobo?" Give what to which hobo? *confused* ;-p #

16:31 So much to do (paperwork, housework, sorting, packing) and so few spoons... #

16:32 I am an expert at procrastination, spodding, hurting and sleeping. Also, being distracted with new games to play (Marathon!) does not help!! #

16:33 @ndixon: "note to self: breathe not in, thy drinking water" Oh. Are you sure you're not meant to do that? Hmmm. I'd better remember that! :) #

16:34 @regularjen: "1,013 words written for a new short story. ... Happy bunny. :)" Plot bunny? ;-p #

16:35 @cindyli and @bradfitz big wheels sounds fun! #

16:49 Am I the only one that can smell impending snow and other wintry showers? Maybe it is the ionisation or something ... #

16:50 ... and on that note I am going to give in to the weatherhead and exhaustion and go back to bed with some pain meds. Duvet therapy required. #

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pixelasleep, sleep

blink†: On depression

Depression Deleted…

"In my early twenties (and frankly, well into my early thirties), I withstood several bouts of serious depressive episodes. These episodes would wash over me without warning or cause, yet I always seemed to search tirelessly for their meaning and the catalyst that created them. I spent thousands of dollars on therapies, medications, trips of avoidance, and STILL the depressive episodes would suffocate me…like a giant wave or a tight noose around my neck…making the simple act of breathing in life a struggle."

This was me from about eight years old and I still get very depressed (clinically and dysthymically) even now in my 40s.

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denial-reality, reality, denial

My take on my roleplaying abilities

After my visit with hubby to the Portsmouth Roleplaying Club with hubby on Sunday where I knitted, crocheted and just watched/listened to them playing, I wrote down some thoughts about my current MonSter eaten roleplaying abilities.

"… I have not played f2f RPGs since the early 90s and that used to be DnD, ADnD 3rd ed., MERP (which I used to GM as well) and a few others. I also have multiple sclerosis which has stolen, over the years, an amount of my information-absorbing, information- and thought-remembering, problem-solving and idea-having abilities (hence having to 'retire' in 2000 after 10 years as a programmer). Then again, maybe roleplaying will help me exercise/use what is left of these abilities so that I don't lose them any faster than they are already disappearing!

I sat in on Alex's game yesterday and had great fun as an observer while I knitted socks / crocheted Cuthulhu, but I realised that I was unlikely to have been able to play this scenario - absorbing information from written (amazingly so, BTW!) character bios within the first or second reading is just not something I am capable of any more. I may have been able to play and even roleplay (as opposed to rollplay) had I had the handouts ahead of time and so had time to read them and re-read them over time, but that may not have been fair to other players.

BTW, my favourite setting has always been high fantasy (e.g. ADnD Forgotten Realms and WoW) although I did enjoy ADnD Planescape for a while …

Thanks for reading - I hope that I have not bored you all to death …"

  • Current Music
    Nine Inch Nails; '13 Ghosts II', "Ghosts I-IV"
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