Sadly, though, I think that asking that simple and honest question might have shot my ability to sell patterns that I design in the foot.
I had been thinking about doing my own podcast because I had thought that I had something to share and some stuff to teach but now, as well as my usual insecurity about my looks (awful adult acne, etc.), there is just no way that I want to do so and so there is no point in my even getting a webcam. My knitting designs will most likely never sell and so I wonder if I should bother writing them up. Yeah, woe is me. I am just totally demoralised by this.
Yeah. Asking one simple polite question using well thought out language leads to my becoming an outcast. My life over and over again since age seven, in a nutshell and all over again. I give up.
I am just going to knit for me, stay in my room and not dare to ask questions of podcasters ever again. Yeah, that sounds passive aggressive, but it is not intended as such. I mean it. Life is safer and less controversial when I stay locked in. I am even tempted to stop watching (or listening to) knitting podcasts. Maybe I should avoid Ravelry as well.