A couple of thoughts as the birds start to sing

moschus

I think we may be identical twins. You are describing me whilst describing yourself. I am 42 and have not yet had any creative 'success' whilst being "good at everything I try to do" according to my friends and family. {I am passingly good at a lot of things but get bored of them too quickly to spend enough time practicing and so never become good enough.}

I have three people with schizophrenia in my large extended family (on both the maternal and paternal sides), many people with mental disorders from depression on up and a number of creative types including an actor and a successful fine artist. I was also the girl in class that would stare out of the window bored senseless but still ace all of my homework and fail a lot of exams. I never could get on with exams.

Many of the things you describe in yourself that I see in myself have been put down to the multiple sclerosis that I also have by the doctors. I did read a book about women/girls with ADD and how they tend to differe from men/boys with ADHD, having ADID (Attention Deficit Inattentive Disorder) instead - I wish I could remember the author(s) and title but it is in storage right now.

So, what I am trying to say with all of this rambling is, thank you for posting this! I will try to remember to dig out that book and read it again. I will also be posting this comment to my livejournal along with a loing link to your post.