Then I happened across this post by
ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER AND THE CREATIVE BRAIN: why a room of her own should not be near the mall
This is the comment that I left there along with all my hastily typed and not reread before hitting "submit" typos:
I think we may be identical twins. You are describing me whilst describing yourself. I am 42 and have not yet had any creative 'success' whilst being "good at everything I try to do" according to my friends and family. {I am passingly good at a lot of things but get bored of them too quickly to spend enough time practicing and so never become good enough.}
I have three people with schizophrenia in my large extended family (on both the maternal and paternal sides), many people with mental disorders from depression on up and a number of creative types including an actor and a successful fine artist. I was also the girl in class that would stare out of the window bored senseless but still ace all of my homework and fail a lot of exams. I never could get on with exams.
Many of the things you describe in yourself that I see in myself have been put down to the multiple sclerosis that I also have by the doctors. I did read a book about women/girls with ADD and how they tend to differefrom men/boys with ADHD, having ADID (Attention Deficit Inattentive Disorder) instead - I wish I could remember the author(s) and title but it is in storage right now.
So, what I am trying to say with all of this rambling is, thank you for posting this! I will try to remember to dig out that book and read it again. I will also be posting this comment to my livejournal along with aloinglink to your post.
Spooky.
P.S. I have an optical mouse by Logitech. Very often (and I mean five or six times an hour) it behaves as if it was a ball mouse that has a huge dustbunny holding onto the ball and I have the urge to take the ball out and scrape the rollers clean - only it does not have either of these. How is that even possible?!
What with the mouse's mind-games and Time Machine running for about 20-40 minutes out of every hour (well, it seems like that anyway!) and making the mac run like treacle mixed with Araldite™ … ARGH! *headdesk*
That written and got off my chest, I am now sleepy - but, of course, Smudge is wide awake and wants to play / trash everything on my desk until I feed her. Two hours early. *facepalm* *headdesk* *earplugs*