Nat S Ford (natf) wrote,
Nat S Ford
natf

A while ago
I was alone.
I was complete and content.
I had realised that I didn't need anything
To be me and happy
And it worked for a while.

No more.
I am not enough any more,
But now I know what is.

There are a few things that bother me.
Am I belittled by need?
Does a return to insecurity
Necessarily mean that?

Will I get hurt?
Because that scares me.

Do I regret?
No.
The good outweighs the bad.

Will I always be insecure
If I need?
Will I always need?

It hurts that what feels so strong now
Could fade.
Could it?
I am not sure I believe it could.
If it did, could I be happy alone?
Probably, in time, but do I want that?

Rejection.
That bothers me too;
And could I be happy alone after that?

I suppose I have before.
But have I been here before?
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